My Thoughts... My Feelings... My BLog

in a dilemma...

2010-08-16T17:13:00.001+08:00

After all the sickening accounting thingy last week I felt a bit relaxed this afternoon since our COO is out of town..see? I even have time to blog hahaha! His presence just made me feel so uneasy 'coz I'm so worried he might have this demands wherein I'm still a complete blind about all those things. I'm not sure but I think he expects a lot from me.. maybe he thought that what SirJohnson knows, knows by me as well..uurrgghh!! Hallerr?? I'm not even a month old here in this company!! This Cost Analysis thing is such a big pain in my ass..and literally a big pain in my head! I just couldn't figure out why some figures don't bother to balance???? It's so hard to scrutinize all these things since I don't even have the records of their invoices and worst the records in their system is not updated... urrggh! can I just faint?!

sog-bu!

2010-06-02T02:02:00.001+08:00

I was in my room when I suddenly realized that my dad isn't home as I glanced their room with bright lights still. I then asked my mom to get her sleep and then I'll wait for dad. As I turned on our PC and, not for a long minutes I heard the sound of our car. Then dad came in with..charan!!!

I have a full meal for my midnight snack today..or tonight? hehehe!

oh how could I ever lose weight?!?!???

byebye mousie-mouse

2010-06-01T15:08:00.003+08:00

Hello world once again after several days of being in silence... been quite inactive in the blogosphere for some time... reason is this...

my cutie li'l mousie has retired.

You were merely six months old, even bought you at Php450.00 so I questioned your quality...are you fake? ... am I being fooled? But I didn't bought you at cheap stalls selling China goods?!?!

Now I realized, I dropped you for like three?.. four times already?? now there ain't no excuses I could bargain... just feeling sorry for myself now that this penniless fella could not afford to get your replacement still... urrgghh!!

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2010-05-28T01:51:00.003+08:00

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i wonder...

2010-05-17T02:05:00.001+08:00

is it really true that when you committed suicide, you will absolutely go to hell?
life sucks these days... and it's hell!

Hologram Effect in Philippine TV

2010-05-13T03:01:00.006+08:00

I really could not delve into the actuations of a giant network such as ABS-CBN. They (the management and personnel) always feel that they are the ones being cheated by a rival network, GMA. As I see it, I really appreciate the intention of GMA Network to deliver a new system to present their topic/newscast or whatever it is to the viewing public by using any means to deliver a timely high technology in this computer age to the viewers to comprehend issues and appreciate its presentations.

Why criticize it?

If they don't want to copy ~~again~~ this Hologram thing presentation by GMA ahead of them, ABS-CBN should've look for any other technology.. another option to surpass their rival network, which I see it as their malicious intention eversince. May it be a virtual presentation or hologram effect, the important thing is that it is a new technology presented by GMA on Philippine TV.

Be creative! at gumastos naman kse kayo!

Bulgogi

2010-05-12T01:22:00.002+08:00

It is one of Korea’s most famous grilled dishes, made from sirloin or another prime cut of beef (such as top round), cut into thin strips. For an outside barbecue, the meat is marinated for at least four hours to enhance the flavor and to tenderize it in a mixture of sesame oil, soy sauce, black pepper, garlic, sugar, onions, ginger, and wine. The marinated beef is cooked on a metal dish over the burner. Whole cloves of garlic, sliced onions, and chopped green peppers are often grilled at the same time.

I just so love the way Kim Rae Won ate Bulgogi in his old drama - Attic Cat (talagang sarap na sarap sya). I also want to eat it best when me grilling it in my front like this...

...and then gonna wrap it in lettuce.. super subo habang mainit pa.. wow!!! grabeh kakagutom na talaga!!!

for my Mommy...

2010-05-09T04:19:00.003+08:00

Happy Mother's Day!
I may not always tell you this but... I love you so much!

A poem I have found.. a very nice poem that I want to dedicate only for you...

How did you find the energy, Mom
To do all the things you did,
To be teacher, nurse and counselor
To me, when I was a kid. How did you do it all, Mom,
Be a chauffeur, cook and friend,
Yet find time to be a playmate,
I just can’t comprehend. I see now it was love, Mom
That made you come whenever I'd call,
Your inexhaustible love, Mom
And I thank you for it all. By Joanna Fuchs

Sakura Festival... here i don't come again

2010-05-07T03:02:00.006+08:00

ok another year has passed... another Golden Week has passed but I seem not really having any single chance to experience "Sakura everywhere". The Japan's Golden Week festival has just ended last May 5 and I only realized just this afternoon the existence of this Japanese big celebration now that I am no longer get in connection with the FCC... I quite missing working with them. For three years, I am so informed of this festival just a week before the celebration due to work issues and when receiving their notice, I am having this picture in my mind...

How I wish I am in this place... how I wish I would be able to celebrate myself the Golden Week in Japan. I don't care about the trauma of mass travel and pressures in accommodation, I just want to experience myself being there

Dengue Fever

2010-05-03T02:17:00.002+08:00

I was on my 5th grade when this disease inflicted my body. One day, I just woke up feeling having a fever. I felt headache and stomachache, too. I ran to my mom’s room and told her that I’m not feeling well. And so, I got my doze of sermon from mom coz she thought that I’m again having tonsillitis due to eating too much sweets and cold drinks. I take for granted and didn’t mind my fever - coz I’m really used to have a fever always.. I’m such a sickly girl then, and even now. It was such a very weird condition ‘coz my body temperature varies each day. Two days we thought that my fever would end as my temperature is getting low, but then few more hours later it will suddenly rise. My mom is quite surprised with what’s goin’ on.. she’s getting inquisitive in me with what I did the past few days or did something bad happen to me that has turned me in that condition. I just said as a young girl - i don’t know? i don’t remember? My mom is still observing my condition, if it goes still the same the whole day, she will bring me to the doctor at once. And so, the next day I still have my fever. We rushed into the clinic and then, our family doctor - Dra. Mansilla waste no time then send us to laboratory give me blood tests. She's actually suspecting that its either I have a Typhoid or Dengue Fever, and so after the tests, it’s positive from Dengue. I never realized how serious my condition was. I was hospitalized more than a week. It was a very terrible experience for me, and for my family as well. You are not just physically drained, but financially as well..oh most of all..emotionally!!! I heard from my aunts that my mom has been crying a lot then ‘coz I reached the state of having hallucinations. They thought was going to die, considering that I am in stage three - that’s the worst condition in Dengue cases. I experienced having 2 dextrose at a time, placing tube in my nose, performing blood tests in me every hour, and needing blood donor. I am a type “O” blood..it's not a rare type, but believe me, my family had a hard time looking for the right donors..yes! DONORS! we needed three donors standing by at the hospital any moment the virus in my body is attacking. My mom could not be a donor ‘coz she’s just got birth from my youngest brother weeks ago. My elder brother and sister could not too maybe because they are still young, my aunts and uncle who are of same blood type could not be too for some complex reasons. I don’t know if its true that because I needed many donors, they actually went to the jail just to get the right donor for me..hahahaha!!! My dad, who is assigned in a very distant area from our city is impatiently and very eager to go home. Terrible things are running thru his mind. He can’t help himself but imagine things like there’s already a burial in our house.. His superior is actually did not want to allow him to go back home since he just got arrived from paternity leave. But the eagerness of my dad to go home is really firm..that nobody could stop him. Luckily, I survived this nightmare. When my dad arrived I was quite fine that time, my mom said it’s good that he was not able to witness all my worst conditions because my dad will be the first one to freak out and will overreact with the things that might also affect his health. Now, I can joke about my experience then - I can even dare to say I’m still alive..“masamang damo, matagal mamatay” hahahaha!

undecided...

2010-05-02T17:02:00.001+08:00

I'm still in a daze... few weeks ago, my previous employer sent a communication to me if I'm willing to go back to the company. I had a not so good exit when I left the company since I really felt bad against my bosses. I know it's sounds corny but I just couldn't help it but feel disregarded, they didn't even value all my efforts for the company, not only me but for the three other remaining staff.

I finally decided to quit my job last January because I realized that there's no hope for GSD/01 to change. It's no use to wait for the uprising again of the company since he's too lax and selfish.

Now it is said that company will now be run and managed by another company.. actually, iverything is still vague in me.. and that's the reason why still I can't decide. I love my job there and somehow I mastered everything so I'm hoping that everything will turn out good for all of us involved.

early morning chu chu...

2010-05-01T20:06:00.000+08:00

it’s 4:47 in the morning now and in a few minutes… am going to bed. Yes, this is my sleeping time as I am sooo insomniac. Whew! it’s so hard in this situation ‘coz no matter how hard you try to fall asleep as early as 9pm or upto 11pm you can’t seem to do it. Good thing for me that I’m one of a heck jobless these days so I don’t need to trouble myself in early call time.

I can now hear the birds chirping... are they singing? is this like their call time? hehe.. I often hear the birds chirping when the clock is about to hit 5am than that sound of a rooster..but I liked it rather. Now I’m wondering... 10... 20 years from now?? can I still hear them chirping in the early morning?

….maybe in a slip of time they’ll just suddenly vanquished because of too much modernization?

…. or is it me?

COLDS

2010-04-18T23:52:00.000+08:00

I’m really prone to colds… and I hate it! so if we share the same dilemma you gotta take note of this:

If you’re suffering from a cold, food that you gotta eat first to feel better fast is a bowl of homemade chicken soup. It does help build up your immune system and it fights inflammation.

If the flu still bugs on you, it’s best to stock up on these healing foods:

Orange juice. Vitamin C may shorten the duration of your cold, helping you get back on your feet.

Oatmeal, Bananas, Fish, Turkey. They help maintain the health of organs that make infection-fighting white blood cells.

Apples, Cranberries, Tomato Sauce. These contain flavonoids, anti-inflammatory substances that can strengthen your immune system.

career move

2010-03-08T14:31:00.000+08:00

I'm planning to finally apply for a job in a call center by tomorrow. I've been searching the net as to what maybe the best answer to this very common point of issue during job interviews - " tell me about yourself"... uurrgghh!! It seems to be an easy question given to you but I don't know why I hardly answer this thing.

Okay.. when you answer this interview question, you can't tell your interviewer about you and your thing since the time of your birth. Yes, you have to tell about yourself in a way giving him/her the idea why you're the best candidate for this position such as your skills, experiences, and your background. Just tell those things that makes you the best, ok? Now I realized that being honest all the time is not also good, and appreciate the so-called words "white lies" hahaha! Of course you cant tell them what your real weaknesses are! Just like when one of my weaknesses is hardly getting up in bed early in the morning... what do you think would they judge you if your having that kind of habit?? of course they can't get you in because you have all the tendencies of going to work late, right?

Hhhmm.. these are just few things that are so common in applying for a normal company... ooppss! I mean - company like offering services, buying & selling goods and whatever... 'coz what I have in my mind right now, a call center company is quite different from the usual companies I've worked with...like I still need to get familiar with stuff like BPO, offshore and nearshore outsourcing etc. etc.

Uuurrggghh!!! I think I don't have confidence for tomorrow's activity

go Japan!

2010-01-20T23:26:00.000+08:00

I don’t know why I would always love to go to Japan. When was a kid, my dream places were America, Spain, Switzerland, etc, etc. But during my college days, I’ve always wanted to go these places.. Japan, New Zealand, and S. Korea (Jeju Island). Anyways, I really admire how Japanese made their country such a great country considering from their history – the bombing in Hiroshima. Well, it has greatly affect their lives, they really had their worst times, but now…you can really see the good transformation of Japan. They are actually, one of the best when it comes to technology, Japan made gadgets could not get behind from those of American and European gadgets. I just hope one day that I would be able to go there, and hopefully marry my ultimate crush Mr. Hideo! Bwahaha!! Anyway, once everything are all prepared and I’m on my way to the country of my Sweetie ... I already do have my list of activities…duh! First thing’s first, I will go on night shopping in street bargains..well my friend Harlie said it’s really a lot more cheaper than those in the malls, and then I will really ride in the Bullet Train; then the roller coaster ride that Harlie told me also.. then the amazingly beautiful hot springs there; and of course the climb for Mt. Fuji! Wow!!! I bet Jo Anna would really die to go with me hahaha. Anyways, this post is almost done, so i hope that anyone could read this and would be kind enough to help to visit Japan that would be great, man! I’m dying to meet you! Hehehe =)

ewan ko sa inyo!

2009-08-04T15:49:00.000+08:00

Hello?!?!? ako lang ba ang tao dito sa office?!?!? bakit ako na lang lagi? ako na nga lang ang may trabaho dito,ako pa pa-problemahin nyo jan sa mga katarantaduhan ninyo?! ok fine.. sign is just a sign! PIRMA LANG YAN! NAPAKADALI LANG! Pero hindi nyo yan magawa? kayo na lang kaya? madali lang man kaya yan? .... and besides, after I sign your stupid documents..sinong tatawagan at pepestehen nyang mga pinagpapasahan nyo huh?!?! bullsh*t!

OMG!

2009-06-19T15:55:00.000+08:00

OMG! As in oh my god! and oh my goodness! and oh-my-gosh!!!! for the first time in the history of bananas, I received an email from PapaIan containing these words - "Dear Bubbles" Grabeeh!! As in super mega kiligin muna ako huh!?!?

Uhm excuse me first, dear reader of my blog, just please allow me to be in my normal foolishness state-being when it comes to my PapaIan could you just imagine?? for more then a year and a half of exchanging emails, this is the firt time he used "Dear" in his greeting... it's like he's calling me "Hi there, Dear"... waahahaahaha..yaickss.. anong kabaduyan ba ung nasingit ko! *lol*

... but then, so what's the email containing about? Oh but of course..his normal stuff - further questioning & discontentment s with the figures reflected in the report. Hahayy what a perfectionist he is! and that's the reality! So I'll go back now to reality and take care of my stuff... at magtutuos na naman kami ni PapaIan! Haynaku naman kse PapaIan, why you're such a "perfect ian"?!?! Whew!

welcome back, Barbie!!!

2009-01-03T02:32:00.000+08:00

I just got home from our meeting with Micmic and Barbie.. it's like a get to together from not seeing each other for a very long time.. and yep that even with Micmic 'coz I haven't seen for like 6 or 7 months to think that she's few kilometers away from my home hahaha.

.... but then i felt like sleepy now so guess i must continue this thing by tomorrow...

uurrggghhh!!

2008-12-06T01:06:00.000+08:00

it's so, so frustrating talaga... nakakainis!! as in ggrrr!! it's so hard to get PR here in blogspot, I manage to generate PR 1 twice. First was last year, too bad i lost it, then I manage to regain it three months ago, but not until today... huhuhu... nakakainis tlaga!! i lost it again! I don't know how or whom am i going to feel mad - is it to myself or my job. I know it's so OA to reason out "being very busy" but it is really true. I'm literally freakin' darn busy! And i hate it being busy always at the office 'coz seeing that some of my useless officemates who does nothing but being sloppy all the time are just playing games and sound tripping at the back. haiiissshh!!!
Whew! sometimes I just can't wait to get out from here!!.... but I still love the maritime life, and i will surely miss my tiring, demanding, vexing, stressful but enjoying moments here :(

fresh from NZ

2008-11-27T00:12:00.000+08:00

ggrrr!!! ano ba naman 'tong si papa ian!! fresh from New Zealand..pasalubongan ba naman ako ng mga critiques nya?!?!

haynaku busy pa akech sa report..bukas ko na lng ituloy tong blog ko.. naiinis lang tlaga ako! hmp!

today's issue : week 33!!!

2008-10-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

If there’s something wrong with the outcome of your report or just simply your paperworks in general, you felt so incessantly embarrassed to your boss to the point that if you could only beg the ground to eat the entire you just to escape from this fuss… not to mention the massive guilt that kills you as if there’s a voice in your mind that keeps on bawling you out: why you sooo stupid!!!??!!

I felt so d*mn angry with myself whenever I’m caught up in situation like this. I feel so weak like I will have an infinite misery (hahayyy). Of course you cannot avoid if you feel depress and disappointed in yourself ‘coz who else are to blame in your stupidity.. your rashness..and your recklessness???

But anyways, do you know that it’s even more twice infuriatingly if the liability and BLAME is on you when you are actually not at fault. I had errors then due to my stupid negligence but majority was because of inaccurate datas and flaws from our informants.
But the thing now…it’s a lot different. Well of course my place of being at fault is so consistent. I received an email yesterday from Ts*m0** asking me about the previous report (It was still from last month actually – the week 33 in particular). She’s questioning me about this and that, and that there something wrong..simple as that! As I went over our files it is indeed erroneous. There were slip-ups in the entries and miscalculations on the figures as well. Of course I held liable for this concern because I am in-charge in this particular task in the company.. but this particular report…. I DID NOT DO IT!!! (i did not do it, ok?!?! I was lying at the hospital then, conquering the “stitch of my life“)… but ironically when this was sent a month ago to the “superiors/principals” through an e-mail containing message that was sent by me… (hahahaha can I just kill you?!) I really over-reacted last month about this.. why put my name when you have your own name?? I mean, you prepared for that report.. you did it all well… but… but why do these people are so afraid and timid to put their name for just a stupid email message?!?!?!?! It just shows that they’re just too cowardly to accept undertakings and hold for responsibilities. SO PATHETIC!! For two years in the company, they never mature! I guess this is one of the reasons why the company is in adversity. The company still struggles because the staff never struggle. Of course, I will not excuse myself from my own shortcomings, I’m not perfect and I have lapses but nonetheless, I know that I have exert enough effort and did my part for this company!

Borat!

2008-08-13T01:34:00.000+08:00

BORAT! This is probably the trademark of this man to the world.

I was laughing at my sister and told her, what the heck is up to her when one day going home bringing with her is a DVD of Borat. I thought it was one of the few corny films she had been introducing to me, but it’s not! You can’t blame me you know.. ‘coz just by reading at the title alone that has captioned there “documentary”, only the dull side came into my mind.

Cohen’s acting is really impressive and funny indeed in that film, even in the accent alone hahaha! I mean no offense with the Kazakhis but it really does made me laugh. I also adore his great courage too as an actor, could you imagine, having a scene fighting with this very, very fat man having your face in front of his butt…and not to mention that they are both naked.. yes! oh yes!! even a single piece of underwear is none… and there were also scenes that they running after each other while fighting..while being naked… OMG! Anyway, in some parts of the world like in the States or in Europe, naked thing ain’t no big deal at all, but here in Asia.. hey it’s still an issue, you know…

I’m pretty sure that Sacha Baron Cohen or the name BORAT had a great impact in the world, especially in his own country. He just made a move to show to the people that no matter who you are, even if you belong to the third world country, but as long as you have the spirit and optimism to go on, you could really do it and succeed! The world now is getting smaller as time goes by, and tribal is no longer a big debate.

CUCUMBER for my eyes

2008-07-24T11:51:00.000+08:00

The most problem in my eye are my eye bags… I’m not really sure but I think the more appropriate term that I should use are dark circle around my eyes (lolz). I don’t think I would still be able to take off this thing right in my face. I always heard and often read on books, magazine, and even on the internet that cucumbers can be of help. A cucumber cold compress can be a remedy for my puffy eyes.. according to some infos it takes off eye bags and dark circles around the eyes…

hhmmm le’mme try it

Song Seung Hun

2008-07-23T23:21:00.000+08:00

Eversince I’m soooo hooked up with this Korean thing, this is the man I’ve always dream of becoming my man.. wwwoooohh?? waahahahaha…. awooo..awwooo!!! ganun?!??! I first saw him in Endless Love: Autumn in my Heart with co-star, the very beautiful Song Hye Kyo.

Song Seung Hun a.k.a my Johnny..oh yes! I call him Johnny ‘coz it’s his name in that drama when it has been dubbed in Tagalog. Most are saying that is he’s not that good looking, but one thing I can only say “they’re blind!!!! And I don’t care what you say… ‘coz all I know is he’s such a papable in my eyes

seee?!??!???!! Isn’t he gorgeous?!!!

just as I expected...

2008-07-18T22:25:00.000+08:00

I knew it! I knew it!

It was already 5 weeks (more or less) since I haven’t received any questions nor complains from an erroneous report from Ian. Even with this, I called "positive/successful accomplishment in my job", I still don’t feel relaxed. His silence makes me uncomfortable.. that from any moment I will be collecting a number of complains from him. I just have these thoughts that I would never be able to do my reports without any flaws. I just get used to have errors. I even bookmark the sites on how to do an apology letter.

Then again.. deep inside of me.. I felt happy and contented that I’m learning to do my new task here in my company…. Imagine from accounting department to Admin/Documentation Department. I felt a piece fulfillment if I made a perfect report considering that I’m a complete ignorant in shipping industry.

So the moment of truth is today. He has complains in weeks 26, 27, 28…. uurrgggghhhh!! Not just one or two but three errors. Well, as I went over to my files and verify things up, good thing that weeks 26 & 27 are just perfectly fine. But week 28 is a complete mess! My boss told me that of all the shippers, we cannot afford to do any lapse to most importantly to s*m!*ru because they are our principal, and of course that they have all the datas and figures in their own company to see if our submitted report is inaccurate. So in week 28, one particular shipment to Japan, just right at s*m!*ru’s consignment, and worst of all we are the agent in this particular vessel… Ian said “we did not load 99,000” I have my entry there as 99,125, figures supplied from our operations department. I told letlet.. no I even warn her to be not just sure of this figures but be very, very sure… it should not be an estimation but the precise total numbers loaded. She said yes! She’s definitely sure so then I have her my word. But she just let me down :( I’m very disappointed. I’m not mad at her, (maybe because I was angry to her for a month) I’m just very upset because she didn’t take my words seriously. (actually she’s not the only one but there are also few personnel in our office are just like her, even worse! very lax.. inefficient, useless, stupid jerks!) Submitting my revisions comprises the responsibility of being at fault. If I can only cry out… and shout out to Ian and the rest of the executives in Japan that 80% of my erroneous reports weren’t from my own negligence…It’s from the informants who gave me the datas!! My job is to make an entry of the figures - segregate containerized volumes; bananas from pineapples; and as to where is the destination.. then sum it all up, do the graphing, then that’s it! If they gave the wrong data/figures then the whole thing will be a mess. But that’s life! We cannot deny the fact that will came across problems and trouble like this. I just have to understand that I’m going to admit the accountabilities in some certain issues in my job :(