uurrggghhh!!

it's so, so frustrating talaga... nakakainis!! as in ggrrr!! it's so hard to get PR here in blogspot, I manage to generate PR 1 twice. First was last year, too bad i lost it, then I manage to regain it three months ago, but not until today... huhuhu... nakakainis tlaga!! i lost it again! I don't know how or whom am i going to feel mad - is it to myself or my job. I know it's so OA to reason out "being very busy" but it is really true. I'm literally freakin' darn busy! And i hate it being busy always at the office 'coz seeing that some of my useless officemates who does nothing but being sloppy all the time are just playing games and sound tripping at the back. haiiissshh!!!
Whew! sometimes I just can't wait to get out from here!!.... but I still love the maritime life, and i will surely miss my tiring, demanding, vexing, stressful but enjoying moments here :(

fresh from NZ

ggrrr!!! ano ba naman 'tong si papa ian!! fresh from New Zealand..pasalubongan ba naman ako ng mga critiques nya?!?!

haynaku busy pa akech sa report..bukas ko na lng ituloy tong blog ko.. naiinis lang tlaga ako! hmp!

today's issue : week 33!!!

If there’s something wrong with the outcome of your report or just simply your paperworks in general, you felt so incessantly embarrassed to your boss to the point that if you could only beg the ground to eat the entire you just to escape from this fuss… not to mention the massive guilt that kills you as if there’s a voice in your mind that keeps on bawling you out: why you sooo stupid!!!??!!

I felt so d*mn angry with myself whenever I’m caught up in situation like this. I feel so weak like I will have an infinite misery (hahayyy). Of course you cannot avoid if you feel depress and disappointed in yourself ‘coz who else are to blame in your stupidity.. your rashness..and your recklessness???

But anyways, do you know that it’s even more twice infuriatingly if the liability and BLAME is on you when you are actually not at fault. I had errors then due to my stupid negligence but majority was because of inaccurate datas and flaws from our informants.
But the thing now…it’s a lot different. Well of course my place of being at fault is so consistent. I received an email yesterday from Ts*m0** asking me about the previous report (It was still from last month actually – the week 33 in particular). She’s questioning me about this and that, and that there something wrong..simple as that! As I went over our files it is indeed erroneous. There were slip-ups in the entries and miscalculations on the figures as well. Of course I held liable for this concern because I am in-charge in this particular task in the company.. but this particular report…. I DID NOT DO IT!!! (i did not do it, ok?!?! I was lying at the hospital then, conquering the “stitch of my life“)… but ironically when this was sent a month ago to the “superiors/principals” through an e-mail containing message that was sent by me… (hahahaha can I just kill you?!) I really over-reacted last month about this.. why put my name when you have your own name?? I mean, you prepared for that report.. you did it all well… but… but why do these people are so afraid and timid to put their name for just a stupid email message?!?!?!?! It just shows that they’re just too cowardly to accept undertakings and hold for responsibilities. SO PATHETIC!! For two years in the company, they never mature! I guess this is one of the reasons why the company is in adversity. The company still struggles because the staff never struggle. Of course, I will not excuse myself from my own shortcomings, I’m not perfect and I have lapses but nonetheless, I know that I have exert enough effort and did my part for this company!

Borat!

BORAT! This is probably the trademark of this man to the world.

I was laughing at my sister and told her, what the heck is up to her when one day going home bringing with her is a DVD of Borat. I thought it was one of the few corny films she had been introducing to me, but it’s not! You can’t blame me you know.. ‘coz just by reading at the title alone that has captioned there “documentary”, only the dull side came into my mind.

Cohen’s acting is really impressive and funny indeed in that film, even in the accent alone hahaha! I mean no offense with the Kazakhis but it really does made me laugh. I also adore his great courage too as an actor, could you imagine, having a scene fighting with this very, very fat man having your face in front of his butt…and not to mention that they are both naked.. yes! oh yes!! even a single piece of underwear is none… and there were also scenes that they running after each other while fighting..while being naked… OMG! Anyway, in some parts of the world like in the States or in Europe, naked thing ain’t no big deal at all, but here in Asia.. hey it’s still an issue, you know…

I’m pretty sure that Sacha Baron Cohen or the name BORAT had a great impact in the world, especially in his own country. He just made a move to show to the people that no matter who you are, even if you belong to the third world country, but as long as you have the spirit and optimism to go on, you could really do it and succeed! The world now is getting smaller as time goes by, and tribal is no longer a big debate.

CUCUMBER for my eyes

The most problem in my eye are my eye bags… I’m not really sure but I think the more appropriate term that I should use are dark circle around my eyes (lolz). I don’t think I would still be able to take off this thing right in my face. I always heard and often read on books, magazine, and even on the internet that cucumbers can be of help. A cucumber cold compress can be a remedy for my puffy eyes.. according to some infos it takes off eye bags and dark circles around the eyes…

hhmmm le’mme try it

Song Seung Hun

Eversince I’m soooo hooked up with this Korean thing, this is the man I’ve always dream of becoming my man.. wwwoooohh?? waahahahaha…. awooo..awwooo!!! ganun?!??! I first saw him in Endless Love: Autumn in my Heart with co-star, the very beautiful Song Hye Kyo.

Song Seung Hun a.k.a my Johnny..oh yes! I call him Johnny ‘coz it’s his name in that drama when it has been dubbed in Tagalog. Most are saying that is he’s not that good looking, but one thing I can only say “they’re blind!!!! And I don’t care what you say… ‘coz all I know is he’s such a papable in my eyes

seee?!??!???!! Isn’t he gorgeous?!!!